False Evidence Appearing Real
I came across this somewhere on Facebook one day and it has stuck in my head ever since. So many times I have found myself staring at a situation that is occurring in my life and not knowing how on earth I’m going to deal with it. Most of the time the thing that is holding me back is fear, false evidence that appears real. It never ceases to amaze me how our minds can turn a thought into what appears to be a reality and in turn something that is so frightening that it can stop us in our tracks and leave us immobilised and incapable of moving in any direction.
One area in my life that has been a constant challenge is writing. For as long as I can remember I have written; poetry, lyrics, short stories or whatever took my fancy at the time. I have boxes of journals and poetry books, books that I’ve started writing by hand, numerous blogs that have been kept for years then deleted and files all over the place on my computer, so the actual process of writing doesn’t generally appear to be the problem. Where I find myself getting stuck is in tackling the one area of writing that I desperately want to achieve, writing a full length book.
When I look at the ‘evidence’ that keeps getting in the way I can see how false it is. Even the fears that may have some basis for concern aren’t really anything that I haven’t dealt with in other areas of my life a dozen times or more. The problem I think is that I want this so much that the thought that I may not achieve it is stopping me from starting. If I never finish then I never have to face the possibility of failure right? As long as it’s a work in progress then there’s always tomorrow. This kind of thought process is so debilitating and I know I have to just suck it up and do it.
And if at the end of writing my book I find out it’s a piece of crap, then there’s always tomorrow to write another one.
Today I am grateful for curve balls, forks in the road, grit, determination and hope.